No Longer...

When thoughts of you run through my mind
I usually smile but now
You the one that left me behind
No longer I'm seeing you

I know I missed you so much
You used to be the light of my life
You guide me through my day
You pick me up
And now you gone
No longer you will be there

Inside my head or perhaps my heart
My life and feelings are confusion
Or who knows
Maybe it is just me
And my love for you just an illusion
No worries
No longer I'm sad

Although
My eyes adored you
Though I can’t own you
My heart wanna have you
Dreaming to be with you
Even just a single moment of the day
But no longer I'll have this kind of feelings
I promised

I'll take good care of Myself
I'll take good care of Kingston
The one i could share my feelings and thoughts with
I know Kingston will hold me back
But, I should understand
What should and what should not
I'll try my best to let go
No longer I will be holding on

My heart says “I don’t wanna let you go”
But what can I do
I cant do anything except to adore you
Cause I can’t own you
I promised
No longer I will be holding on...

But please allow me to make another request
A request which you owe me
Till now...
A one last one!

I promised!!

Happy Birthday.....

4th
When the clock strike 00:00
I knew it's your time to come home
When the clock strike 12:00
I'm not sure are you home yet

2nd
The last message u sent to me
telling me the tee i bought for you got dirty
with stain from the wooden bench

At the very first
I was happy that you brought the tee
along with you to Langkawi
I wonder do you appreciate it
Should you have taking good care
if you do so
Yet,
blame will not on you
angry will not be with you too
All I wanted to know
You able to text me
You are safe
You still know
where the tee came from

**Just to let you know**
***You're there in an Island
****We're here saving a kitten
which got stuck in the roof top
******And dear..we saved it!

4th
I spent the whole day
looking around for a gift
a gift for you
once you are back
And I got it!

5th
I had planned
a dinner with you
for the special day
But
Stomach cramp
Ruin all my plan
I felt sorry
that i couldn't give you the special day
Instead
receiving the chocolate from you
that you bought from Langkawi
Thus,
Do you feel happy
that I gave you a gift in return?

6th
It was your day
I wanted to see you
but I can't
I wanted you to blow
the candles and make a wish
but I can't
I could only leave a card
and the handmade crochet cupcake
into your postbox
I wanted to light up the candles for you
I can't
I wanted to wear on the shirt
I bought for you
I can't

All I can do is
to send you a text
wishing you
a Happy Birthday

I'm glad
You finally know that
It was a handmade cupcake from me!
And I hope you'll keep it with you
till the very end

Away From Home.....

Before you leave
I'd already start MISSING you
you're off to another place AWAY FROM HOME
But for now I know there’s nothing I can do
It won’t be long till you're BACK home

The DAYS will seem like forever
And the NIGHTS an eternity
But I know in the end you'll know the WAY home
With the guiding light of destiny

Although it's only a FEW days apart
I'd START missing you now
Misses the sweet sweet taste of you lips
And the softness of your tender kiss
It’s all I need with your arms around my hips
And together we’ll be in a world of BLISS

I knew nothing ain't goes wrong
I knew you'll BEHAVE and control well
I knew you'll not hurt me nor making me WORRY
Here, I'll PRAY for you days and nights
Please TAKE CARE

Don't forget the chocolates you'd promised me~
I STARTED missing you now...
Come HOME when you're back~

**As Long As You Love Me**

I don’t care if we can't met regularly
I don’t care if we just seldom meet
I don’t care if we can't be together the way I wanted to be
As long as you love me...
I don’t care if you are far from me
I don’t care if we just sometimes chat
and if I need to wait for the chance to chat with you
As long as you love me...

I don’t care if you can’t send me email
I don’t care if I am always waiting for you
I don’t care if you just respond through text
As long as you love me this much...
I don’t care if am here crazy for your love
I don’t care what others will say about us
I don’t care if I have a foolish heart
As long as I love you...

Who cares anyway,
As long as we love each other endlessly...
But this I care to love you more
than you’ll ever want me to...
For I love you more than you’ll ever know??

~A Wonder Girl~

She is wearing a smile on her face. A friendly, smart and beautiful, everyone adores this girls.
Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesnt's know why. She lays in her bed at night and cries. She doesn't know what causes the tears.

How could this princess have insecurities or fears??
She has it all....
A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her lovely family, she gets good grades, has her own car and her makeup never fades.

Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way. This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem....

I Start Hating Love!

Have you ever been in LOVE?
It is horrible isn't it?

It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens your heart and get it means someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses, you build up this whole armor, for years....so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person....no different from any other stupid person...wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you where they don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kis you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain~ I HATE LOVE!!!

Love You More Than Myself~

I really Love you...
But you Love someone else...
When I see You, I can't close my eyes...
I just want You to see how much I care about You...
May I could see You in sometimes...
I Love You more than myself~